I Swear it was easier when I was younger.
Being a
good friend and being a good “adult friend” is quite far apart, nonidentical I might
add. I came to this realisation when I became uninvited, when my personal
success became the topic of gossip in the mouths of the people I met in the journey of becoming an adult.
Childhood
made friendship seem bliss. If you had sweets and outsider eyes glaring at them, the moment you shared that was your Main B****. I wrote letters with gel pens, flowers, cut
out hearts all to friends sitting literally centimetres apart. As time went by
partying and and getting by was how bonds were made and broken. Those don't last forever, making friends becomes a whole new game.
Now I’m
21, building my brand, I have a job and responsibilities that lay far beyond
drunken nights and impulsive decisions. Time goes by with a blink of an eye. With
every minute of hard work and adulthood, good is coming my way. I am the person I
want to be (in the making) and to those around me I have become invisible, coffee
and chats are not good enough for the liqueur scent escaping their mouths. Schedules
change. We all strive for different things, have different things, some more
than others, but the truth is the adult life has become a consuming tomb.
Don’t
get me wrong not all adult friendships are hard, making them is a tiny bit
harder. But I’m sure that the adult friends understand since they are all in
that space in time. They are considerate of our work-induced black-hole of seclusion, when we choose an early night in bed with tea over the buzzing under city lights.
This does
not mean I am giving up. I have a number of gel pens and written cards that I intend
to send out once I actually get to the point of buying stamps. There are old
friendships I cherish and one day if it’s worth it they will get there
colourful cards in the mail.
Namaste xx
Yep. Finding your tribe is harder when you're adulting. Good luck. I really liked this post!
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